No no Chris Noth is not getting married, again. If you know me, you know my Mr.Big saga as well. Can’t Say What I Say, has been pretty much the best thing I ever did, it was controversial, it was fun, it was me. And now I am back continuing my rants here under the journal.
So it took me a wedding to realise, that all along, I was harping, being emotional, psychotic and a total jerk, about somebody who isn’t even Mr.Big. This person isn’t even close to my imagination of Mr.Big.
When I learnt about his wedding, wait, don’t get excited, I wasn’t heartbroken, I actually was thinking what I would wear. My best friend once said, that Candace Bushnell will murder me, for completely ruining the idea of Big, of course I did not listen to him back then, but today everything he said makes total sense!
Though I am very happy for not my Mr.Big, and he deserves all the happiness in the world, I wish him a blessed and blissful married life ahead.
So I am here typing this post and realising, I’ve grown wiser this year (well the year has almost ended), and its time for new beginnings. There have been things I have done in the past that I am not proud off, in fact it makes me shudder even thinking about some, but the wisest is to realise that I was running or hoping for something I never ever wanted. There are certain expectations I have out of myself, and this isn’t what I wanted, it’s not bad, but it’s not me. And with a little time left before I step out of college, there’s just so much I want to do, including Paris!
Life awaits me, opportunities await me.
This life is too small to ruin it over something I never wanted. Mr.Not My Big, today happens to be a great friend, a great lesson I learnt.
From today it’s all about chasing my dreams and goals, living my life on my terms, being a little wild, a little wise, and trying to earn some of those people I lost just because of this.
It’s all about becoming the Rasna, that I was once, not the fickle-minded one!